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And the Journey goes on....

Sun, 27 May 2007 16:02:11 GMT

Life is a stage.... a game.... or simply any metaphor that anyone can relate to.... It consists of eventual series of fun, peace, love, and momentary thoughts of abnormalities consequences. Like killing someone you hate, having dirty thoughts of someone inappropriate. Nonetheless, it all revolves around choices. the only power that a human being can have. I'm no expert when it gets down to making decisions... and half the time I regret the choices I'd made....
Follow your heart, people said..... just go with the flow..... let things take it's course..... WTF? I had thoughts, thoughts of the past, the future and the present.... And I have no sense of a choice.... I know what I want, and I'm scared of what I want.... and when that happens, I dun know what I want anymore.... this is truly a "mind-bottling" experiences... ya' know, when things get so messy and complex, it feels like your brain is stuck in a bottle and someone is vigorously shaking the bottle with your brain in it, until your brain turns into the puree state.... Screw all that.... I'm off to my Season 3 of Grey's Anatomy.....

"I don't where this path is leading, but I think I'll just go along....."

End of the road.

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 03:40:33 GMT

the last photo we had. I know I sound like I'm mourning. I'm mourning.... Mourning for the love that died, gimme that.... gimme some time to mourn before I move on. I think I deserve to at least lean back and really live my life with nothingness for a little while....

Life Lessons: taking things for granted

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 18:26:44 GMT

Life is short and the ever passing moments never waits. Once a second is gone, it is gone forever and no current technology can give you back time. Everyone is guilty of having things taken granted for. I'm no exception. For everyone who is reading this entry, heed my advise.... treasure every moment of your life. Treasure your love ones. I just lost my love one, not to death. But things just come to an end. She wants to move into her own phase in life, which apparently I'm not at yet. I've sorted out a lot of thoughts lately and laughed at my past blog entries, where I complained and cried like a wussy when things don't go my way. Relationship is both giving and receiving, sometimes it's nice to received and sometimes it's time to give. Timing. One of the key essence in a successful relationship. And when it's time to let go, let go no matter how painful it might be. take my advise, Treasure your loved one, for those of you still having a companion in your journey of life. Enjoy those simples moments. Listen to her complains. Allow her to nag at you. Enjoy waiting for her outside the restroom. Save all her SMS messages. take more photographs. remember her smile. Enjoy the way she calls you. Enjoy every single phone conversation. Treasure every goodnight greeting from her. Plan every date carefully. Know her intimate details. talk to her family. Smell her hair and always says it smells good. remember the smell. Wake up earlier to see her still sleeping. remember the way she looks. Appreciate the fact that calling her on the phone is like a everyday thing to do. remember every hug. Give her space when she needs it. Listen to her when she talks about her work. Remember her friends and co-workers names. Treasure every single meal you had together. Treasure the feeling you get when her phone rang and she says she's out with her boyfriend. Treasure the fact that you are the Boyfriend. remember the sensation of having her head on your shoulder. treasure the private jokes you share with each other that only you two can appreciate. Sleep close to her when you're cuddling at night. thank her if she cooks for you. Appreciate the walks you take together after dinner, or sending her home. or maybe just getting to be able to have a look at her. Learn to appreciate her. Even when she in her home clothes, tell her she is beautiful. Appreciate her beauty. Never forget the sensation of her hands in yours. Treasure every moment you get to hold her hands. Treasure every kiss you have. Treasure every moment. All the simple moments. Human Beings become complacent as time moves on. things that are almost gone or gone becomes precious. Sometimes, things that are gone for good are the most precious of all. I've lost her even tho I cannot stop searching. Searching for the lost feelings we had once and still having. I might find my way back into it if I search hard enough and long enough, but it's not entirely up to me to decide. take my advise, treasure everything you got in life.

signing off,

depressed....

I'm here

Wed, 21 Mar 2007 17:12:31 GMT

*Chorus

it wasn't up to me, the decision lies in you....
to tell me you love me, just like the way you do....
it would be 2 years and 6 months after June.
this can't go on, if it's Friends for you in lieu....
Ohhhhh...... it's been a long long slumber.....
Just want you to know that I'm here.

Verse 1
day by day, it goes on , year by year.
everything is moving faster.
Just want you to know that I'm here.
so alone sometimes, I can't hear myself.
even when I scream in silence.
you're the only one

repeat Chorus

Verse 2
Everytime it seems to break my heart.
when I hear my favourite laughter.
It seems to occur when I ain't near.
If this is what you want, then go and dun even bother.
for I just want you to know that I'll always be here.

Repeat Chorus

even when I'm alone, I'm still here......

When Age seems to be moving faster than you

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 06:05:26 GMT

This is one of my loneliest birthday ever..... life seems gloomier when death is coming nearer and near as age increases.... maybe I have become bland..... like someone's opinion..... tomorrow will come and I'll be blessed with another day and maybe I might feel better.... even if I walk thru this alone.....

Ramblings of a Lowbie

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 06:17:51 GMT

I have a sudden urge for a spiritual realisation. I have been slacking for the past few months. I have a bad habit of sleeping and late and waking late as well. I lost $100 in mahjong last week, KNN. My Dopod handphone still have problems sychronizing with my lappy. I miss Cheese. I'm planning my year end vacation. I'll be starting my driving lesson finally. My test date is 27th March next year. I'm typing this blog while Ramesh is training the Navy People. I need a new guitar. I like my new spectacles. I still think the buying of MP3s for my company is a stupid idea. I miss the fellowship. I'm running Silent Hill: Darkness Surge the pen and paper RPG for Eugene and gang. I've been delaying the game date due to my lack of organizational skills. My WOW character is still level 31 only. I need to read more. My school is starting on the 7th of Nov. I'm still on Neil Gaiman's Neverwhere. Halloween just slipped by, no party this year. The Covenant is not a bad show. The pork chops from the coffeeshop opposite my house sucks. I wanna eat viking dog. I missed a Magic Tournament yesterday. I'm going to a body check up at CGH this week. I still owe my Girl a visit to the Dentist. I hate Dentist Visits. I'm scared of Dentist's Visits. I wanna write songs again. I'm finishing my RT this week... woohoo! I'm forming a few new decks. I had neckache due to my bad sleeping posture yesterday night. Big Glup makes a good Breakfast. I got two more books on my to be completed list. I need to reformat my laptop soon.

Flashback 2006

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 10:16:02 GMT

Back finally after several months of excuses for not blogging, I finally ran of them. So here's the update. The real Deal. The good, bad and the ugly....

After Slumbering for a long period...........

Well, for updates, after a hectic year 2005, Company trip in Taiwan, camps after camps again.... June Midyear exams are coming which means more Camps are coming, a period of rest and fun is needed... and Thus, Bangkok trip with the Blokes....

Feeling better after offering our respects to the Buddha, it's time to SHOP!

Rewards for a tired shopper.

Home at last.

End of update 1.

To the Faithfully Departed....

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 18:47:50 GMT

Rest in Peace, my Furry Friend.... I shall see you again one day....

Cheese, March 2005- October 2006.

NEWSFLASH!!!!

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 19:54:40 GMT

Blogger tied down with work, stress, health problems and things that just prevent him from updating this blog. Be back in Mid August.....

Sweet Return!

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 21:53:46 GMT

As I finally recall my sign in password, Gosh, it's been quite a while since I've blogged. Have been travelling quite a fair bit, seen a lot of things both in reality and in the spiritual world. Not as in Ghost, but more of the inner self... Wah, sound so profound, so sensitve.... If not for the Fu*k-ed up Oesophagus Reflux Disorder, and the constant diarrhea courtesy of the "100% Clean and Rust Free" water pipeline in Malaysia that releases the yellow stained water... I guess it would be a great idea to set up a service school for food and beverage over there. I have to wait for 10 minute for my Tek Tarik to be serve and mind, I didn't know that tek tarik taste good with chilli, salt and pepper. Then after finally successfully plucking all the feathers off the chicken and killing it, I've to wait for another 20 minutes for my food to arrive. Talk about a rustic feel and away from city resort.... The staff working there is portraying the theme of their work place with perfection. A really fun and intriguing experience cos you'll never know what you're gonna see next.... Well, to state an example, this is the first time I see the staff of a resort sleeping in their 24 hour cafe and turning off all the lights.... What the Fu*k??? I didn't know what's with my slight anger, perhaps I've been influenced by the someone (ah-hem!!) to be really particular about service quality or it's maybe the mixed emotion I'm having right now to be back after a long 9 days of work overseas.... Well it's has been a GREAT month.... and there're tonnes to update, bangkok trip, coach training trip, the Malaysia camps.... I shall update asap once I find a reliable photo uploader....

Signing Off.....

"Thanks Melvin, you've saved my life.... " "No Joel, you've saved yourself"