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Name: Melvin
Birthday: 3/2/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: Song writing, Music,Talking, Guitar, Tabletop gaming, Mahjong, Gourmet, Movies, Fantasy Novels, fantasy games, geeky stuff.....
Expertise: Gaming, talking, Painting beautiful pictures in ppl's mind, pissing my gf off, entertain.
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  iammelvinchew
MSN: i_am_melvinchew@yahoo.com.sg
ICQ:  325023392
Yahoo:  i_am_melvinchew
Member Since:
1/8/2004
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| Life is a stage.... a game.... or simply any metaphor that anyone can relate to.... It consists of eventual series of fun, peace, love, and momentary thoughts of abnormalities consequences. Like killing someone you hate, having dirty thoughts of someone inappropriate. Nonetheless, it all revolves around choices. the only power that a human being can have. I'm no expert when it gets down to making decisions... and half the time I regret the choices I'd made....
Follow your heart, people said..... just go with the flow..... let things take it's course..... WTF? I had thoughts, thoughts of the past, the future and the present.... And I have no sense of a choice.... I know what I want, and I'm scared of what I want.... and when that happens, I dun know what I want anymore.... this is truly a "mind-bottling" experiences... ya' know, when things get so messy and complex, it feels like your brain is stuck in a bottle and someone is vigorously shaking the bottle with your brain in it, until your brain turns into the puree state.... Screw all that.... I'm off to my Season 3 of Grey's Anatomy.....
"I don't where this path is leading, but I think I'll just go along....."
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the last photo we had. I know I sound like I'm mourning. I'm
mourning.... Mourning for the love that died, gimme that.... gimme some
time to mourn before I move on. I think I deserve to at least lean back
and really live my life with nothingness for a little while....
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Life is short and the ever passing moments never waits. Once a second is gone, it is gone forever and no current technology can give you back time. Everyone is guilty of having things taken granted for. I'm no exception. For everyone who is reading this entry, heed my advise.... treasure every moment of your life. Treasure your love ones. I just lost my love one, not to death. But things just come to an end. She wants to move into her own phase in life, which apparently I'm not at yet. I've sorted out a lot of thoughts lately and laughed at my past blog entries, where I complained and cried like a wussy when things don't go my way. Relationship is both giving and receiving, sometimes it's nice to received and sometimes it's time to give. Timing. One of the key essence in a successful relationship. And when it's time to let go, let go no matter how painful it might be. take my advise, Treasure your loved one, for those of you still having a companion in your journey of life. Enjoy those simples moments. Listen to her complains. Allow her to nag at you. Enjoy waiting for her outside the restroom. Save all her SMS messages. take more photographs. remember her smile. Enjoy the way she calls you. Enjoy every single phone conversation. Treasure every goodnight greeting from her. Plan every date carefully. Know her intimate details. talk to her family. Smell her hair and always says it smells good. remember the smell. Wake up earlier to see her still sleeping. remember the way she looks. Appreciate the fact that calling her on the phone is like a everyday thing to do. remember every hug. Give her space when she needs it. Listen to her when she talks about her work. Remember her friends and co-workers names. Treasure every single meal you had together. Treasure the feeling you get when her phone rang and she says she's out with her boyfriend. Treasure the fact that you are the Boyfriend. remember the sensation of having her head on your shoulder. treasure the private jokes you share with each other that only you two can appreciate. Sleep close to her when you're cuddling at night. thank her if she cooks for you. Appreciate the walks you take together after dinner, or sending her home. or maybe just getting to be able to have a look at her. Learn to appreciate her. Even when she in her home clothes, tell her she is beautiful. Appreciate her beauty. Never forget the sensation of her hands in yours. Treasure every moment you get to hold her hands. Treasure every kiss you have. Treasure every moment. All the simple moments. Human Beings become complacent as time moves on. things that are almost gone or gone becomes precious. Sometimes, things that are gone for good are the most precious of all. I've lost her even tho I cannot stop searching. Searching for the lost feelings we had once and still having. I might find my way back into it if I search hard enough and long enough, but it's not entirely up to me to decide. take my advise, treasure everything you got in life.
signing off,
depressed....
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*Chorus
it wasn't up to me, the decision lies in you....
to tell me you love me, just like the way you do....
it would be 2 years and 6 months after June.
this can't go on, if it's Friends for you in lieu....
Ohhhhh...... it's been a long long slumber.....
Just want you to know that I'm here.
Verse 1
day by day, it goes on , year by year.
everything is moving faster.
Just want you to know that I'm here.
so alone sometimes, I can't hear myself.
even when I scream in silence.
you're the only one
repeat Chorus
Verse 2
Everytime it seems to break my heart.
when I hear my favourite laughter.
It seems to occur when I ain't near.
If this is what you want, then go and dun even bother.
for I just want you to know that I'll always be here.
Repeat Chorus
even when I'm alone, I'm still here......
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| This is one of my loneliest birthday ever..... life seems gloomier when death is coming nearer and near as age increases.... maybe I have become bland..... like someone's opinion..... tomorrow will come and I'll be blessed with another day and maybe I might feel better.... even if I walk thru this alone.....
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